I saw this really touching video on youtube...the best song for the best movie ever...enjoy =)



I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven



CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!


Another video touching but not as touching as before...hehe...

Hrmmm...feeling rather confused lately...and I mean confused. Just too much things to think about I guess. So much have been going on lately, what a year it has been and its still going on with all the shit. Obviously i would not look back at 2007 with alot of interest. I wish I could just erase it out of my life. Reboot or refresh...send to recyle bin and delete maybe. A year that started out crappy, then followed up with so much promises and bright hope, but even sooner then I can say happy new year all hell broke loose. Somehow, somewhere there was a glimmer of hope but eventually it is gone as fast as it came. Everthing happend so fast just as soon as I entered Masterskill everything just breaks down and gets messed up.

So much hope, so many plans, so many things to look forward to just gets screwed up in a moment. It just feel like such a curse. To all those friends who cared, especially those from UCSI. I'm sorry I sort of ignore you all because I just don't feel like myself anymore, its so hard trying to be myself anymore. I havent been online offen because some idiot stole my laptop and I'll only be getting my new laptop tomorrow. Yay!!! So I'll be back online 24/7 by next week. Thanks for all of your concern and help.

PS...to the idiot who stole my laptop. If you're reading this, may God bless you and a freaking monkey come out from your ass!!!

People change...but do people change until so drastic? Going to the mall and see couples hanging out together hloding hands and enjoying each other's company. Looking at my parents and grandparents who lasted so long even through all the quarells and misunderstanding. But the most touching of all is seeing old couples going out together and even holding hands together in public. I know everyone has their way of showing affection and love but sometimes seeing older couples who are married showing affection in public such as holding hands, cuddling up to each other, or even a guy giving a massage to his wife while taking a break from her shopping would give me this feeling of emptyness inside that has been there for a few months.

If people do change and change so drasticly, would a couple last that long? Wouldn't either one party gets upset and fed up of giving in to the other's changes? Hrmmm...

Hrmmm...been back in JB since Thursday. Been eating alot...hehe. Havent been online because no laptop and house computer was down. Only today the computer is up and running...yay!!! Anyway, gonna go up to Kampar on Wednessday with mum to take care of my grand-mother. Will be there until the following Monday when classes start again.

Have been doing alot of thinking lately. Trying to piece everything back into place but always end up in tears. Hrmmm...

Anyway, I've been reading this book recently. Its 'The God Delusion by Richard Dawkins'. My main aim of reading this book is that I was searching for answers and I wanted to see things both ways. I had the answers but the 'answers' sort of shot me back in my face. Its interesting to see people who are so deperate to prove that God dosen't exist until they start arguing about things that seem to relate to God no matter how important it is.

As I'm still reading the book, something that was writed really struck me into thinking and make share this here. It is a argument from both extremes of atheist and believers. Atheist argues that science can prove everything in time when researchers and scientist understand more about our universe and to the simple thing of how an organism works but a believer would just say that this is 'intelligent design by the work of God' when he/she does not understand how something works. Its like a cell that is so complex where a believer don't understand or lazy to understand would just give the answer of 'the wonders of God's creation'. I have met people like that and I'm shock my their niave behaviour.

I mean if we could look deeper into something and understand its complexity wouldn't we be more in awe of God's creation? To see how something like a single cell or our bodies work in perfect harmony bring us more to understand the greatness of God rather then just blindly saying that how great God's creation is that its too complex for us to understand? Indeed we need more christian scientist in this world rather then the atheist scientist in thier own ignorant way try to prove that everything is possible without a higher power and christians to search for answers to prove what we believe rather then blindly accepting what the elders of our churches or preachers say.

Hrmmm...let me just set the record straight. The previous question is a question I'm trying to ask long time ago but didn't have the guts to put it out. Anyway it has been answered. Thanks bro!

Yes I'm losing faith in God but I don't deny that He dosen't exist. Indeed everything we see in nature even to the smallest particle of an organism which is a cell is filled with complex mechanisms which can't just come together by chance. After studying so much I'm still so amazed on how a single cell can be so complicated and how the whole human body can function with everything complementing each other. There is sure a higher being that caused all this to happend. That person is God. None other then Jehovah.

So don't get me wrong. I'm not turning my back on God yet. Its just really really hard to fully put my trust in Him now and I don't want to act like a hypocrite who goes to church or do everything 'the Christian way' but deep down inside I don't feel its worth. That would even make me more of a stumbling block to other Chrsitians then posting controversial questions here.

Can it be easier?
Can I just change my life?
Cause it just seems to go bad everytime
Will I be mending?
Another one ending once again

Hrmmm...I have this question that has been bugging me this few days. The Bible says that Jesus Christ was born of a virgin and also says that He was of the Seed of David. Joseph was indeed from the line of David but Mary was a virgin when she concived. So how can we say that Christ is of the Seed of David if He was born of a virgin? Hrmmm...

Anyone who has answers can send it to my email at blazer_8201@yahoo.com

I also found this interesting site which is quite cute but sometimes quite true - www.godlessgeeks.com/LINKS/GodProof.htm

Had a hair-cut today...yeap finally I cut my hair. This is because next week might have inspection so have to be good boy abit...hehe. Head feels super light now but feel better I guess.

Times are still bad and the future still looks like shit. Everything is still messed up. Haiz...just wish I could turn back time.

Been watching quite a few movies lately after getting my stack of DVDs from JB. Many interesting movies such as Click, RV, Knocked Up,Simpsons Movie and High School Musical 2. How great will life be if only it was like a movie where people screw up, learn their lessons, made up, and live happily ever after. If only life was like a movie and you have to bleed just to know you're alive...

Just watched High School Musical 2 again, had this nagging feeling to watching it again. I don't know but I just keep reflecting on myself as I watch it again...wierd. Anyway what struck me was the line in the song everyday which goes ' They say that you should follow, and chase down what you dream. But if you get lost at lose yourself, what does it really mean?'. I was so determine not to screw up and do well in my studies until I lost the most important part of my life and everything eventually fell together with you when you left. Even God seemed to bail out. It was like studying to I could get a good future and not let people down.

Honestly I would trade everything I'm having now, the course I'm doing which I enjoy, my grades, and even my car which I so wanted to get my old life back. To get back to something that had meaning, to get back with you. I'm no more enjoying what I'm studying, I have nothing to look forward to, I can't even play football properly and enjoy it. Everday just seems like a routine of going to class, comming back, study and sleep. I don't even know who I am anymore...its like I'm living my life now because I have to. I rather screw up A-levels again, atleast life back then had more meaning and joy. Haiz...

If we were a movie
You'd be the right girl
And I'd be the best friend
You'd fall in love with
In the end we'd be laughing
Watching the sunset
Fade to black
Show the names
Play the happy song

If we were a movie...

Heiya...just watched Knocked Up...ermmm...quite an interesting movie I guess. Really shows how a couple that screws up and have so much difference can make something more wonderful in thier relationship if they only try. If they only are willing to change for the better and not just run away when there is a problem. Hrmmm....

Can't really sleep this few days...so much things going through my head. Used to have the comfort of my room and hostel room to release and there was you. Now everything that I take comfort in is gone. No more privacy...no more slamming the guitar...no more regular football...haiz...totaly no life now. Go to class and come back everyday and the routine goes on. Study, study, study...haiz...can't really click with the people also...no footie kaki...all so 'cina'...haiz...

So sick of eveything...so sick of seeing 'wontons' everyday...so sick of uniforms...so sick of indian songs...so sick of this God forsaken place. Comming to this God forsaken place is the worse mistake ever, even worse then screwing up A-levels. I thought I could make it with you by my side, but God had to take away my last hope for some wierd reason...haiz...