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    Tuesday, September 23, 2008

    Wooziness into philosophical

    Recently I realised that my body is no more like that when I was a 15 year old. Late nights, heavy exercise without sufficient sleep and bad eating habits is taking a toll on me. Have been feeling rather lethargic combined with stuffy nose and wooziness. Maybe its just because I have been studying so much lately that also causes psychological stress together with physical stress. Can't wait for the holidays in a weeks time!!!

    One of my friends sort of became quite philosophical lately with all of her thinkings. Indeed there was something good that come out of it, the answer that many have been looking for. Ever wondered why we can just be so angry at someone and it will eventually lead us to hate that person? The answer is love. The reason why we feel so angry towards someone is because we actually love and care for that person. Allow me to try and explain on this point.

    Just imagine you are driving on the road and another car just cuts into your lane without warning. Yes, we would be angry but its only for that moment, for that day at most. But if someone we really love and care for hurts us in anyway, we would really feel angry and dissapointed as we won't be expecting them to do such a thing to us. This feeling will not only last for the day, it would last for days, weeks, months or even years if the conflict is not delt properly. Friendships and relationships are broken so easily just because of this.

    Friends become enemies in split seconds, couples break up, married couples divorce, everything just leads back to dissapointment that leads to anger and eventually hatered for each other. Sadly to say its usually due to trivial matters left unresolved that slowly builds up as relationship debris and eventually the lip pops open. Some try to argue thier way out, some try to find other ways, couselling to clear this mess but eventually it still boils down to the individuals involve. Are they willing to resolve this or are they going to judge the other person base on dissapointments?

    Love for each other is always there. To me, love is everlasting, it is forever. How much we hate the other person, we still look back in love for them. We still care for them, we still miss them. Once we look under the debris of dissapoinments, anger and words, the love that was shared is still there. Its just like the sun being blocked by the clouds for awhile. We can't say that the sun is not there when the clouds block it as the sun will always be there just like the love between individuals under the debris of relationships. Clearing the mess will indeed take much time and pain but the end result will be understanding each other much better, in turn building a stronger relationship and finding a love that is everlasting.

    A perfect couple is not when two perfect persons come together, it is when two imperfect person learn their differences and accept each others.
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      Monday, September 15, 2008

      Can We Change The Pass?

      If you stayed, If we tried,
      If we could only turn back time...
      Having insomia for the pass few days. Feeling super tired but just can't get to sleep. Probably my biological clock changed a little due to the exams pass week and also I did have alot of things going through my mind. As we look forward to the future, do we look back at the pass with pride or do we look back willing that we could change certian aspects of it?
      Recently watched 'The Butterfly Effect', rather old movie but really interesting story-line. Its about this person who has the ability to travel back to his pass just by reading through his journal or looking at a picture. He first found it out when he was trying to recall memories as he reads his journals. He travels back in time to change things in his pass in order to try and make things better in the future but everytime he changes something, something in the future goes bad.
      Anyway, my point is do we want to change our pass? Obviouly we go through life with much regret that we carry around as baggage. Honestly, I would really like to change some parts of my pass but is it worth it? The ending of the movie really struck me with thoughts. We have to take the bullet ourselves to ensure the happiness of those around especially for those we love most. Sometimes I really wish that things didn't turn out as it is, but do wishes really come true? How much can we really do if our life is already planned out?

      To move on is such a scary thought. The pass memories will eventually catch up with us no matter how far we run. As the famous saying goes, we'll never know if we never tried. Hrmmm...

      You left a mark
      I wear it proudly on my chest
      Above my heart
      To Remind me that I feel the best
      When I'm with you
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        Friday, September 12, 2008

        Relaxation...

        Woohoo!!! Mid-sems are over!!! 1 week of crazy nights studying and cramming my brains. Time to look forward to a relaxing weekend. Recently I've kind of made quite an interesting observation as I was listening to Chris Daughtry's songs. Of all the 5 singles that have been released on radio sort of have a story line to it. Its like breaking up with his girl and till now is trying to patch things up. Let me try to explain this point by listing the songs in order.

        1. Its Not over (after breaking up we do go into denial and try to fix things)
        2. Over You (we tend to get over the person probally due to anger and defeat that nothing more can be done)
        3. Home (he gets depressed and heads home to find the people he loves and belongs)
        4. Feels Like Tonight (try as we might we still are in love with the person and want to make up)
        5. What About Now (it sure is tough to patch things up but still we keep trying)

        Alright...that's my observations when I try to distract myself from studying...haha. Just finished watching 'The Love Guru'. Hillarous and super lame in a nonsense sense but there is also some true messages that came out from the movie. Indeed there is no short cuts in love and we do need to learn to love ourselves before we can love another person.

        What if our love never went away?
        What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
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          Tuesday, September 09, 2008

          Mentally Lethargic


          Yeap yeap, I'm having my mid-semester exmas this week. Done with 2 papers today, 3 more to go!!! Gone are the days of A-levels where I just go for exams and do it. Feeling super mentally drained now. Havent studied so much since...hrmm...can't even remember when I've studied so much...haha. So going to party and let it all out this weekend or probably just lay around doing nothing catching up on sleep. Oh where oh where are my Raya holidays???!!!
          How nice is it now to be laying on a beach, enjoying the sun, sand and the beautiful view. Peaceful yet full of excitement to be experienced. A nice chilled cock-tail in hand, barbacued burger in the other. Jamming on the guitar and just escaping from reality watching the world pass me by as people go around doing thier buisness. Ahhhh...
          Okok...I'm going insane...hehehe. Need to go back to studying now. Just needed to destress abit...arggghhhhh!!!
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            Wednesday, September 03, 2008

            Birthdays, Chilling and Movies!!!

            Ahhh...just came back from hanging out with Christine, Jo, Wei Way, Churn Haw, Jason and Leslie. Long long time didn't see this people already. Had dinner at OUG and went over to Mid-Valley for a movie. Honestly, that movie is super no meaning to me. Expected much better from a movie with Vin Diesel staring in it. Its really just bo liao...dissapointing.



            Was at Mid-Valley again last Friday to celebrate Calvin and Angel's birthday. Obviously we had loads and loads of food at Pizza Hut. Movie marathon after with Money No Enough 2 and You Don't Mess With The Zohan. Totaly laughing our asses off throughout both movies.


            Watched Forgetting Sarah Marshall on Saturday at home. This is a movie which kind of got me thinking. Is it really that easy to forget someone and move on in a new relationship? Hrmm...


            Guess only this things only happends in movies...