ACCIDENTS/COINCIDENCE???

It's really super long since I've blogged!!! Too many things on my mind but just don't know how to bring it out. Anyway, I kinda feel it's time to start blogging again. I think some of you may have seen this post on my facebook a few days ago, 'If there's a reason to everything that happens and it's all in God's plan, so is there such thing as accidents/coincidence?'

You know, with our lil finite minds it's just so hard to grasp and understand certian stuffs, but it's just as hard to move on not knowing why somethings just happens. When something just feels so right and certian but sudenly it just crumbles out of no where and even after asking the other party why it happend they just simply reply with 'I don't know, it just happend'. Isn't there suppose to be a reason for everything that happens? How can something just happen out of nothing even when it all seems so true and all the signs points to that way. I know I do seem like I'm going round and round in circles but it's really hard to go on when things are so illogical.

There's this famous saying by Albert Einstien, "Coincidence is God's way of remaining anonymous". So yeah, don't totaly agree with this statement even if it seems like it makes sense. Sometimes I really do wish God will give some clear answers, something like smack in your face that you can't even deny it unless you're that stupid to live in denial. Yes I know we're suppose to live by faith but sometimes when things drag on too long without anyway of getting better there's really some real options to question our faith. Faith without work is dead, blind faith.

So just a thought of the many that is going on in my head. Just watched 'When In Rome' with Angel, Andrea, Ain, Alex and Joe. Super freaking awesomely hillarious with that touch of romance. Oh well, reminded once again that only such things happens in movies.

THE 10 YEARS THAT WAS

It's the year 2010, the start of a new decade. So how was your past 10 years? Do you remember how you were 10 years go? This world has been through so many changes for the past 10 years. From the millenium bug craze at the turn of the new millenium, to the 911 attack in 2001, US invades Afghanistan in 2002, US then invades Iraq in 2003, the tsunami in 2004, followed by the pollitical tsunami of our country then the financial tsunami recently. World Cup 2002 in Korea/Japan, 2006 in Germany and now we look forward to Africa 2010!

The past 10 years has been such a journey for me. This time 10 years ago I just started secondary school. A start of a new chapter in my life, a new school, new friends and new experiences. I was officially a teen! So I was that usual teen growing up. Eager to do anything other then study, learnt many things the hard way and obviously rebellious. But those 10 years has thought me many lessons. It started out with much to expect and optimism. Things we're going on really great and life was looking very bright but it started to decline towards the end till now where I'm still picking up the pieces. Still so many questions left unaswered, new questions and old questions surfacing time and time again.

Indeed those years gave me the best days of my life and the worst till date. I learnt how to love another person and what a great feeling was that. To spend time and share your days and moments with the one you truely love with all your heart. I've also experienced pain and hurt like never before and saw myself crash and burn till I wonder what's this life is all about. Saw that light at the end of this tunnel many times but just as I was about to reach it, things just crumbled down again. Sometimes I really wonder if I put too much expectations and trust in people that I hurt myself if things dosen't turn out as expected.

This year didn't start out like how I expected it to be. There was so much of expectations and optimism as the end of last year approaches. But as the usual trend recently when things seem like it's getting better, it crumbles down again. Keep getting this sense of deja vu. As of now I don't really know how to look forward to this year. All I can do is put my trust in God, at the same time really hope that He will answer my questions. So the start of a new decade. Where will I be 10 years later? How will things be 10 years later? Only God knows, the author and finisher of my faith, the alpha and omega, beginning and end.

CHRIS TOMLIN - UNFAILING LOVE

You have my heart
And I am Yours forever
You are my strength
God of grace and mercy

And everything You hold in Your hand
Still You make time for me
I can't understand
Praise You God of Earth and sky
How beautiful is Your unfailing love
Unfailing love

And You never change God You remain
The Holy One
My unfailing love
Unfailing love

You are my rock
The one I hold on to
You are my song
And I sing for You

And everything You hold in Your hand
Still You make time for meI
can't understand
Praise You God of Earth and sky
How beautiful is Your unfailing love
Unfailing love

And You never change God You remain
The Holy One
My Unfailing love
Unfailing love

DAWN OF A NEW YEAR

In less then 10 days the year 2009 will come to a close and we say hello to a new year, 2010. A landmark year for many as it's the 1st century of the millenium. I'm sure October 10th next year will be a day filled with ceremonies and many will be booking their engagements or weddings on that date. So how have your pass 10 years been? How was your 2009? Have you achieved what you set out to accomplish, satisfied with what you did this year or are there any regrets?

2009 was a very exciting year for me, a year of learning and new discoveries. Finished the theory part of my physiotherapy course and went off to India for postings in April till October. Think the overall highlight of the year was the trip to India. Learnt so many things while I was there. From studies, to friends and about life. My relationship with God has also gotten closer through those few months. I also got to know a really wonderful girl that only by God's grace may happen and not by chance. A year of ups, downs, lefts and rights. A really mixed year that was.

Looking forward to the new year, can't really predict what will happen in the coming year. Will be finishing my diploma around June, and to decide where to continue my degree after that. Looking at a few places but will wait upon the Lord and see where He leads. Will put my trust in Him also in starting a new relationship and thanking Him just for another day of grace that He's granted. Few verses I'll always keep in mind as I face each day no matter good or bad the outcome.

For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. Jeremiah 29:11

Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths. Proverbs 3:5-6

Rejoice in the Lord always and again I say, rejoice. Let your moderation be known unto all men, The Lord is at hand. Be careful for nothing; but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your request be made known unto God. An the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Philippians 3:3-7

CHRIST-My-Almightly-Saviour

Christmas is just a week away!!! It's that time of the year where Christmas trees are up, decorations everywhere and people rush of to do their shoppings. Tis the season to be jolly, the season for giving! With the Christmas season all commercialized, are we aware of the true meaning of Christmas?

Indeed Christmas is the season for giving and God gave the greatest present to all. He gave His only son for us, our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ. We hear of the Christmas story every year and we sing of it in the carols, but do we really feel it in our hearts? Jesus left all His glories in heaven to walk upon this earth and eventually to die for our sins, so that we may be able to come back to God. He did not just die but He rose on the 3rd day, the grave is empty and we rejoice and serve a risen Saviour!

For God so loved the world, that He gave His only Son, that whosoever beliveth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life. For God sent not His Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through Him might be saved. John 3:16-17

Do you want a friend who is always there for you? Through your ups and downs and carries you through all your troubles. Someone who promises to guide you through life's journey, walking with you hand in hand through thick and thin. Find you when you stray too far not to condemn but to lead you back to the proper path and shower you with His love. This friend I have is Jesus. He'll always be there for you, all you need to do is believe in Him and follow Him.

The language of Jesus is love,
Just one word can bring healing and life
To each heart that has hungered,
For kindness and truth
Through the trails, and the triumphs of life

The language of Jesus is love,
It tells the greatest story ever told
Such grace and tenderness,
Mere words could not express
The language of Jesus is love.

I'M BACK I'M BACK!!!!

Wheeewww!!! It's been a really long time since I've blogged, the last blog was when I was still in India to be exact. Been running around quite abit since I've got back from India. Didn't stay in a particular place for more then 2 weeks since I've been back and this would continue till the end of the year. Travelling, travelling and more travelling! It's been the usual KL-JB travellings and the 1 week each of the road trip with friends and vacation to South Korea with family. Currently back in JB, going for youth camp tomorrow and back to KL on Sunday.

So, Christmas is just around the corner and we stand at the treshold of another year. This year has been a year of many changes, changes for the good and I can see my life slowly moving forward. Not much of a wish-list for this Christmas but loads of thanks to God for bringing me through this year and all the lessons that I've learned throughout the year. For the wonderful experience in India and His protection.

Most of all I thank Him for bringing someone special into my life. She's like a breath of fresh air but takes my breath away when she smiles or looks at me with those beautiful eyes. She can go on talking for hours but has the cutest laugh that can make you all mushy inside. My prayer will be that God will guide us and bless us as we walk down this road together.

All I want for Christmas is YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! =D

PRAISE YOU IN THIS STORM

This time in 1 week I'll be done packed and ready to head to the airport back home. So much has been going on. So many plans has to be cancled or post-pone. Ever had so many things crumble at the same time? So many plans that have to be shifted? Been working on something for so long but then now it's like on hold not knowing weather it can continue. Questions, questions, so many questions and thoughts going through my head. Will it all be deja-vu again?

PRAISE YOU IN THIS STORM by CASTING CROWNS
I was sure by now
God You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to you
And you raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You

But as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth

"He hath made everything beautiful in His time;" Ecclesiastes 3:11a